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[hereprophetslie]

I'm sorry I disappeared this morning. I didn't tell you, but Neil was hurt and I wanted to be at the hospital with Daria. It wasn't me having a last minute change-of-heart, or deciding I'd made a mistake or something. I'm sorry if you freaked out. I'm at the hospital now if you do want to come, but we're okay here.

I think, now that I'm...you know...in a listening place...I'd like to understand what happened back then. Just sometime. I think it would help.

And for the record, I didn't not call Peter last night because he's in hospital. I know he would have left to come get me if I had asked him to. I called you because you were the only person I wanted to see. Thanks again for coming to get me without hesitating for a second, even though I have been an unbelievable little shit.

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[thatoldgeek.livejournal.com]

Tell you how to be a dad-like thing person? Oh boy, now there's a difficult question. Mostly it's a lot of trial and a hell of a lot of error. Luckily people start as babies so the biggest screw ups they'll never remember you making. You've still got a few years there with the Daria's girls before they start realising how much you can mess things up, and even then they'll still barely notice until they're teenagers. Then all bets are off.

In the end it all comes down to just loving them and just making sure they know that.

[hereprophetslie.livejournal.com]

Teenagers.

....holy shit.

Holy shit, Dad.

No no. I'm in hospital waiting and I should not currently be realising that one day I could be the step-father to teenagers oh Jesus.

And I have to go try to convince Mum not to hate Daria.

You know what though? I do love them. Which kind of scares me, because they're not my children, but I love them a lot. I didn't realise I would, but I do.

[thatoldgeek.livejournal.com]

Then you're off to a brilliant start. Embarrass the hell out of them with it. Better they have to peel you off them in public and whine and moan than ever think you don't care about them.

I can't wait to see you have to deal with teenagers. I'm going to laugh.

[hereprophetslie.livejournal.com]

...how many times can I say 'oh, Dad...' in this conversation? Geez. I hate that you...that your dad was...blah, you know what, you're a real person, not a symbol, and it's weird.

(and you're mean!)