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[hereprophetslie]

Dad.

Harmony just called me (and forgetting for a moment that I have a new number and I have no idea how she got it) and asked to meet Daria.

I don't even... What...

Arghf.

Daria could totally kick her arse, but she could kick my arse too, and Harmony will say something insensitive, because she's Harmony and I just don't know what to do.

I haven't even told Daria about the girl on Dwyer Street, let alone Harmony. There's just too much.

Comments

[thatoldgeek.livejournal.com]

Tell Harmony that now is not a good time. You have the power in this relationship and you need to remember that. She can't force you into a position that you're not ready for, and it's not fair for her to try and throw herself back into your life.

[hereprophetslie.livejournal.com]

I don't even understand why she wants this when she made it perfectly clear she didn't while I was in hospital.

I was so terrified Daria would leave me when I was hurt because Harmony just...fucked me up.

[hereprophetslie.livejournal.com]

That has nothing to do with-

You're right. It's just not the time. I can say that. It's true. It's not an excuse.

I just feel like...if I try to ignore her, then that's me doing what she did to me and I know how much that hurt, so doesn't that make me an arsehole?

[thatoldgeek.livejournal.com]

I don't believe it makes you an arsehole. You don't owe anyone anything and you're only responsible for your own emotions. Don't let anyone walk into your life and command things you're not ready for.

The difference is that you're ignoring someone you have no connection to any more who has shown up and demanded attention without deserving it. When Harmony ignored you, the two of you were together and you'd made an agreement through that to be there for each other. She broke that agreement, not you.

[hereprophetslie.livejournal.com]

...you're right. Of course you're right. Dad...thank you.

So uhm...hey. So I was thinking about like...maybe coming home? Is...would that be okay?

[thatoldgeek.livejournal.com]

That would be more than okay, Noah.

[hereprophetslie.livejournal.com]

I think I want to move out. Just...I think it's time. Not because of you! Until then though, I should be home.

I miss you. And I don't like the thought of you being all alone.